Do I like you, Do I like you not?

By Dominique Fields

I'm bothered by your very presence 
You leave me nervous, breathless
Gasping for air, Aching
For everything that is your essence 
I don’t know these feelings 
I don’t want these feelings 
Just like you don’t want me 
Like how you ignore me
Along with your pacifying 
The denial of all your lying 
Still, I can’t decide 
Do I like you, Do I like you not?

You turn me upside down 
Now I’m all off balance 
We always go round and round 
Stability presents a challenge
And then I’m sick 
As if I’m anemic 
I’m so sick 
Of your injustices 
And yet, I ache for you to be my home 
And now I’m homesick 
What a lunatic
But I can’t decide 
Do I like you, Do I like you not? 

I feel so helpless
I am so pathetic
But also excited 
And energetic 
You inspire me 
Make me feel
It’s hard to distinguish 
between what’s delusion and what’s real
This is coming from someone whose insides resembles steel 
So I chase this feeling 
Because it’s different 
I finally feel human
But I’m in need of healing  
Yet I still haven’t decide 
Do I like you, Do I like you not?