The island of shattered dreams
The ebbs and flows
Cold winter winds blow
Across the oceanic world
No land to see, nor harbors to call
The loud silence of doomed souls
Black gulls take to air
Round and round they fly in evil circumambulations
No sound through truculent clouds
Of promised rain and storms
And what is left behind?
And what is forward for?
A requiem powers the sails
Sung soft and low
Come by night or day
By air or by sea
Come solo or in droves
But be warned that none leave
Your belongings packed before the journey was charted
With hopes and ounces of faith that were stored
Paper invocations floated back down from heaven
Have trailed here to be buried, amongst you
This place where God will never be
And no prophets or messiahs to set you free
Rank upon rank, file after file
Men with crosses to bear
Of mistakes and unfulfilled best intentions
Come hither friends and foes
A choir of unholy spirits rejoice
Usher to your new abode
Come by night or day
By air, by sea, or on knees
Beware though, that none leave
Because there is nowhere else to be
Welcome to you, friends
To the island of shattered dreams
Rain on you
Of all the ways that lovers do
Dreams and thoughts of touching you
How I could turn into rain
And pour myself onto you
My gray clouds float to your presence
Steal sunlight from the sky, and prickle your skin with a frosty breeze
Ignite Goosebumps on your slender arms
A premonition of what’s to come
No I won’t pour, nor drown in a biblical deluge
A light drizzle would simply do
For the unrequited desires that I seek from you
Evanesce my being, I fall down to
I’m whole now in a million drops
Delicate like sparkling dew
My first splashes on your raven black hair
But you are still so unaware
Oh my paramour but there is more of me
So much more too of you
The first for any man, I rejoice in my descent
How a fall can be from one heaven to another
And drips of me on your forehead
Your turn your face above to see
The Cimmerian nebula that carry me
I slither down to your sultry cheeks
Fuchsia with surprise and elation
Smooth as polished marble
Of a temple made for a religion arcane
Known only to me
And sizzle in wicked delight
Trills to your lips
The warmth of your breath fleeting
Rapture so abundant
That is in rain
A peek of your pinkish tongue
Wanders out to seek a taste
A drop is captured in curve
And let slither back in its sepulcher
Inside you I float, running in your life blood
We are one
How I wish I could ebb through your veins
Like an addiction without cure
Drops of me all on you
Soak your clothes through and through
Your curves accentuate my lascivious fervors
As I caress you further
To the flats of your torso
I slither and crawl
Tickle and feather, my touches to arouse
Till your legs so neatly parted
Almost finished what has been started
I slide and slide lower still
To your thighs and knees
Shaped with such feline grace
Your ankles, till
Your feet and toes
So perfectly formed
The places they take you
But steps so far from me
So slowly I roll
To my final demise
Soaked now by grass beneath you
I am life now in another form
Fertile with your redolence
I await another turn in eternity
To love you again
THE DEPARTED
Covered, closed and sealed
Fist after fist of moist sand
Laid to rest
The walk back now for the living
A drive to return to an empty abode
Wouldn’t it be so much better to also bury the memories behind
Carry on now i must, and still be near the places where we used to dwell
Incomplete, left to repeat a single wish
If only you had taken me with you
My eyes stray on the barren shelves
Where you kept your clothes
Residues of your perfume still linger in the air
The very scents that stirred my lusts for so long
Now make it so hard to breath
i must wake still, every morning and pretend to be alive
Though, i know i went in that grave much before you
What remains now is a quest
To seek answers for infinite questions that are left for me
All of them beginning with “why”
The finality of it all, this surcease
Becomes too much to bear
My heart beats on my chest like a hammer on a condemned wall
And when i can take no more, i fall to my knees and cry
Sob tears that rise from an abyss
Very deep inside
For the love lost to me
The warm embraces now cold as artic snow
The kisses owed but never collected
The words that i felt but left unsaid
Maybe you’re in a better place now
Better than this living, breathing hell
That caves in around me
Maybe you’re happy now
Or maybe, simply, this is what i deserved all along
So now that you’re with others i see
Everyone else but me
I’m taken back in that cemetery
To a cold dark corner, tranquil in perpetual shadow
Far away and sequestered
On a little piece of hallowed ground
Where broken hearts are buried
Autumn (Acrostic)
Alone
Under deciduous trees
That shed leaves like heavenly tears
Undone like strings
Memories flutter to the ground
Now all my seasons are cold
The beggar in the corner
You’d see me
If you looked close enough
Well enough
In the midst of the throng
Of teeming masses going about their daily mundanity
Like I go by mine
No, don’t blink your eyes
Yes it is me
In the ragged and torn clothes
And the bare cracked feet
The skeletal body wasted away in years of wait and expectation
Dry parched lips that can mumble prayers no more
Nor recite tales of love and devotion
I sit here and squander my days
Count gold coins I don’t have
Come back from places never been to
And make friends with people who don’t know me
Eat what is thrown my way
I sleep where I can lie
And I wake when I want
Though those thoughts of you
That can’t be buried deep enough
Return as djinns with every twilight to skin me alive
So I live every day, to die by hours
Gaze from the gazebos I had
And in them the shrubs
That bloomed in the dulcimer of our laughter
My tears now welled up that refuse to flow
The wrinkles etched on my face, a map of an Elysium
That banished me eons ago
The embraces and cuddles
Of children never born
To me
Thus I sit here
Every day, a cracked hour glass
Spending in repetition
One life that I ever lived
Now left to a slow torturous demise, and wonder
Was there ever a you and I?
Bio
Rizwan Saleem is a Banker based in Dubai UAE. The thoughts and expressions detailed in his works are of his various escapades suffered through life, and of the profound surprise of having survived long enough to pen them into words. His poems and prose have appeared in anthologies Twenty Seven Signs by Lady Chaos Press, Self Portrait Poetry Collection by Silver Birch Press, E fiction India, Scarlet leaf Publishing as well as Colors of Refuge.
