By Tauwan Patterson

“‘Tis The Season!”

the
holiday
approaches
nestling
knocking
seeking
graciousness
in spite of whatever
viciousness said
I’M HERE! . . .  yesterday, today, this year
NOT TODAY, SATAN!
right?

Festivus

with a tremble of the lips and a rumble in the throat i
felt it comin’ for quite some time now
knew, you are in need of a good cry
thru the wall adjacent, joy and laughter for
this friday, december twenty-fourth
togetherness poppin’ off all around
this eve he sits alone at the table
this friday he ignores the invites 
sittin’ in the company of a five episode series on
the early onslaught of AIDS
got me in my feelings heavy
be this head
weighted down
sobbin’
snifflin’
heavin’
lettin’ the sadness come back to life
and for a minute i think
dial it down
no need to compete with 
the surrounding holiday cheer
but the time has come 
this here my moment
this here be my christmas eve 
so i let my lips rattle like an aftershock
sing a little of that opened
mouth wail
suddenly everybody hurts plays
shaking me into silence
adding five minutes and fifty-five seconds to
me truly living that good cry gifted onto me
fully unwrapped 

Hailing from South Central, Los Angeles, Tauwan Patterson is a Black + Queer Poet and recent graduate of the MFA Creative Writing Program at Queens University of Charlotte, North Carolina. His work has recently appeared in the inaugural edition of the online literary magazine Cool Beans Lit and 3rd Wednesday Magazine, and will also appear in the forthcoming Moonstone Arts Center anthology Which Side Are You On?!, the Winter Issue of Rise Up Review, Porkbelly Press’ Love Me, Love My Belly zine, Muse-Pie Press’ Shot Glass Issue #41, and the Rising Phoenix Review. With his poetry Tauwan aims to, in the words of the great Poet and Thinker Marcus Jackson, announce his freedom and presence. Making a sound that echoes in the end that says Tauwan Patterson. No more. No less.

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